I woke up so happy and free. Not scared, not anything. Light as a feather. Ready to listen and obey. God spoke very clearly to me that it was now time to be Mindful and Purposeful with everything in my life. That I/we have lived in excess for too long. I always considered myself a good steward of my money, faithful tither, generous, not at all stingy or selfish...so I was not afraid of Him being displeased. I knew none of this was punishment but preparation....but for what? What on earth does God have to say to me that required such attention..such stillness. I was sooo happy and thrilled to know and hear. I was grateful and humble that the Lord God , my Father was so anxious to speak to me. Wow!!! What a wonderful friend and Father alike. I love you God, you are so awesome!!! Now anyone else would be freaking out, scared to death but not when you have the Holy Spirit dwelling within you. No I was smiling from ear to ear because I knew all that I have recently endured with my employment was not man's plan, but God's. All the trials and tribulations were now defined in my heart as tests..tests from God. You mean you allowed them to treat me this way? Yes, said the Lord...yes. But I let no weapon formed against you prosper. That is indeed true. I was attacked in every way and in every direction but I always stood firm and still and I knew in my heart if God was for me, then who could be against me. Certainly not those clowns who call themselves ethical employers. But the day I drove home was July 5th 2010, "my spiritual independence day" so to speak. My hubby gets a shout out for that tag line. :) I had handed in my cell phone so I had to drive home alone with no one to talk to, stuck in holiday traffic headed home so there I was stuck in what should have been a 50 minute commute, taking just under 2 hours. 2 hours alone still just with God. He let me know that all would be revealed and all of this would have purpose.
Psalm 46:10
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