God showed me one of the things I had to do. Be mindful of my spending. I spend in excess. Whether it is a touch of compulsiveness I am not sure but I like to shop. :) So He asked me to do something for Him. I told Him anything He asks of me, I will do. He asked me to stop spending and living in excess. The desire He placed on my heart to cook was coming with a heavy price tag and it wasn't of Him. It was me. Just always shopping and buying more food on top of more food. Don't you find yourself going to the super market every week faithfully even though you have a pantry/fridge filled with tons of food? And always being shocked by the amount the cashier says? I always would go in saying I was NOT going to spend more than $100 and come out $125, $130, $160! On 2 people!!!!!! Ridiculous. And I am ashamed to admit the waste at the end of the week. All the food we would throw out...the 2 leftover slices of pizza, the lemons you forgot you had and when you found them shoved in the back you greeted them with such enthusiasm, "Hey I didn't know you were back there...I forgot I had you"...and don't they always look different b/c now they have fuzz growing? Ewww. That was me. And I was so ashamed. I asked God to forgive me and tell me what it is He wanted to say and I would listen. After all, my life was in His hands. I had just completely surrendered all my being to Him. And I had vowed before Him that my life was not my own anymore, that He would control every single facet of my life..every detail. What was it that He was going to ask of me that included food, cooking and shopping.....
Proverbs: 3:5
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