Yesterday was more to me than another 90 degree sunny day in my pool. :-) It marked the completion of my 2nd 40 day cycle. I reflect back to the beginning of my journey and I can see that the Lord had me rest the 1st 40 days. He restored my mind, soul, heart and body. He renewed my strength and made me whole again. My old "life" of all work, no play is so far in the distance it amazes me. I am grateful that God has completely delivered me from any regrets or bitterness or anger. I never felt a day of anger for what was taken from me. Instead I rejoice and I praise God for Him loving me so much, He wanted to give me more. I am happier today that any other time in my life. I tell everyone a sad day is better than the best of fun days I ever experienced at work. He has blessed me with the lasting relationships from there so I am missing nothing. He has kept those important to me in my life. Those I do not see or talk to were for a season and I am not sad or angry about that. I am accepting of that. God never took anything from me that I needed. I used to think I was being punished for something. But now I look back to my 1st 40 days and I see someone who was so sad,broken and lost that it is of no wonder He came for me. Thanks Lord for rescuing me! As for the last 40 it has been a long road. Some of struggle,some of pain, some of change. I have had to let go of things and people in my life. I watched my husband do the same. It is sad but necessary. I have also watched the Lord bring new people into our lives so He never leaves us without. I would call it a peak and valley for He blessed us with so much as well. He is moving and shaking and pressing down to make things anew again. I feel rested and whole and ready for our next 40 days. God is great no matter what! Amen?!
2 Corithians 8:9
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