I have to quickly report that yesterday's message in church was exactly what I wrote about in the morning. How we should run towards God, not away when adversity comes. It was just confirmation. If you pray for something and/or hear about something and then hear the scripture again or the exact same subject again, then it is called confirmation. So I knew God was definitely telling me to run towards Him and not away. I made a promise to myself and a vow before God that I would put Him first and the way I knew I needed to display such action was to get up and pray with the church this am. So the alarm was off at 5am and I was asleep. It took me a few minutes to wake up and it was dark and cold out. So I just got some fall clothes out for us and decided to just jump up and get ready and change. I said to God if I could get up for a pointless meeting at work or for an early morning flight or trip than I certainly can get up early for Him. So with 2 cups of coffee in me, my husband and I were off to the chapel. ALL I asked my husband was, "they don't make you pray out loud do they?" and "they don't single people out do they to pray?" and my husband explained how it goes and that no you could stay in the backdrop if you so chose. Now I love to pray and I pray all the time but always to myself. As confident as I am, I don't feel bold to pray out loud. And I have been praying for boldness in the matter of prayer because it makes me feel good to pray with and for people. But I pray simple you know? So we get there in the rain and cold dark weather and the chapel was brightly lit. And they allow you to quietly devote time to yourself to pray for whatever it is you need. Some were kneeling, some were reading, some were studying. I was reading the book of Joshua and some Psalms. The assigned pastor then got up and talked alittle and instructed us to just break up in groups of 3 and in our group discuss 3 names of people we were praying for in the hopes their souls would be saved. And he said pray together and just let the spirit lead us. So my husband and I were in the row with Pastor Bruce and so he came to us and we formed out group. We talked and shared some names and he suggested we go around the group and each of us pray for the people and he started. Well I grabbed my husband's hand and squeezed it to signal to him to pray for me. There was no way I was going to pray in a circle in front of PB. So we prayed and then Pastor Brent told us to then share in our group our own prayer requests and to again pray as a small group. So the 3 of us shared our requests and what was on our hearts so PB said we would go around the group and he said, "Cindy will pray for me and I will pray for Christian and Christian you can pray for Cindy". WHAT???!!?? Oh no!!! I have to pray out loud! In front of PB and for him????!!!!! This is a cruel joke and I must disappear immediately. But I felt the spirit within me and I felt it move through my heart and chest and I was calm and no longer afraid. I was bold and I prayed out loud for the first time ever. The pastor took my hand and I began to pray for his need and for him. It felt good and I was moved. And we all prayed for each other. Not only was it a special moment for me but also it felt great to recite out loud our needs. And PB prayed for us and me and I was at peace. So off we went and here I am. So God knows our hearts. He knows our desires. Even when we don't speak them. He gave me the opportunity this am to conquer my fear and to boldy pray in His name and He gave me the ability to do just that. And the cherry on the cake was we prayed for each other. And like PB said when we were done, "Amen and consider it done!" So I am praying and believing for the 3 of us and our needs and prayer requests. And I am considering it done!
Matthew 18:20
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