I need to stop putting myself ahead of God. I did it again with something and another lesson had to be taught. When will I stop repeating the same thing over and over? Anytime something happens I always assess myself first. I ask myself, did I cause this? Am I doing something out of the will of God? Is there a lesson here? I would be lying if I said yesterday was a great day. I was angry, feeling sorry for myself and questioning a lot of things. I think God understands and it is okay to get mad. My poor brother's cat got out and has been missing for 48 hours and I feel so bad for him. It makes you ask, Why God? Why me? I am a good person, I do right. Why can't this happen to some scumbag that is always cheating on something or someone. Natural to feel this way? I think so but only for an instant. God simply wants us to trust Him at all times with ALL things. He does not promise us a perfect world and a perfect life. I think we struggle more than others here on this earth. But I had to really stop and ask God why something happened to me and He revealed at the end of the day in my dark room all alone that I keep getting ahead of Him. He will continue to stop me anyway He can until I surrender all to Him. I keep saying I have but He has shown an area of my life where I continue to lead. I also need to stop spending like I used to. To be in any kind of debt is a life not managed so God has once again stepped in and asked me to give it all to Him. And His way was yesterday's minor incident. So as long as I continue to grow and learn and just slowwwwwwwwwwwww down, I think I can do this. In Jesus' name.
Please say a prayer my bro's cat returns home safely and soundly. Thanks! :-)
Psalm 16: 5-11
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