New day, new month. Yesterday was the 5 year anniversary of my Dad's passing and I would like to think I had a special angel with me. I was his baby and he affectionately called me "Cynthie". Love you Daddy. "Your" tree is up and displayed proudly in the foyer. It reminds me to keep things simple this holiday season. I usually do the big white real flocked Christmas tree with all red/white ornaments and trimmings but I am undecided about it this season. I won't have my usual employee Christmas party and all their winter birthdays to buy for so gift giving will be super light this year. I won't be exchanging with my entire family anymore so this holiday season will be different but you know what? I feel free and light about it. I don't have the stress of lists and who is getting what and who is buying for who. I used to do all my Mom's shopping for her but I asked my brother to do it this year and my sister will buy for the grandchildren. I just am not up for it. Gift giving and excessive spending is a part of my past. It was the very first lesson God taught me and the very first command he had for me. Remember my 40 days/40 dinners back in July? Well the practice holds true today. No more excess spending. Not on food, not on me, not on others. That doesn't mean we are not going to be a part of this holiday season. No way. My house looks like a magical Christmas wonderland. It lights up at night and looks just beautiful. I sit and watch the fire and lights for hours with my kitties curled up on their blanket next to me. It is there that I share my most intimate conversations with God. It is there that I declare my love and hope in Him. He reminds me not that He can, but that He will. And that is the true definition of faith. He asked me yesterday why was I so downcast? I just told Him I was sad and scared of the unknown and it is there alone that He told me to hold on to my faith and He will do all things. Thank you Lord. Thank you for your promises. Thank you for always being there for me and assuring me to not fear for you are with me. I believe you. So as you told me the true act of faith is planting a seed and waiting........AND BELIEVING! Amen. Have a safe commute this rainy day.
Isaiah 41:10
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