Have you ever been yelled at by God? I was yesterday! He told me to get out of the driver's seat. I immediately said, "Ok". I am getting in my own way. My desire and natural instincts are to fix things. It is what I was trained and employed for. For 25+ years I was management and that meant solving problems. I was a trouble shooter for employees and customers alike. So when a problem arises in life what do I do? Try to solve it. There is a mountain in our way right now and I am constantly trying to find ways to climb it, blow it up, chip at it, erode it....and when I do this, I cry and experience the deepest levels of sadness. My husband's reaction is to fight and argue and His anger arises. I mean anyone would look at us and say, "Yo....get off the mountain and stop obsessing about this mountain. Have faith as small as a mustard seed and the mountain will move." Our faith will indeed move the mountain as Matthew 17:20 talks about. It is not the lack of faith that I share this but the fact that I am always getting in God's way and trying to handle it NOW. I also like to share this with you so you all know when it is God trying to get our attention. We all have weaknesses and we all have strongholds. God wants us to reveal them and share them with others. Noone wants to learn from someone who only shares their victories and their joys. I am sorry but it is true. People want to converse with others that share their worries or their failures. When you act like you are perfect and living a blessed and perfect life, people will simply walk away feeling less of themselves and that is NOT God's way. So I feel God wants me to share my struggles with others. For the most faithful person may get scared and anxious and want to try to "move the trial along". It is then that we must get out of the driver's seat and enjoy the ride. Amen? Amen!
Matthew 17:20
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